Monday, September 24, 2018

Postcard 17

The canopy is filled with the
Panicked shivering of
Cicadas still searching for
True love. The leaves rustle to the cries-
"Choooooose Meeeee"
"Ieee Aaam the Onnnne"
With each night that passes
Followed by an even shorter
Day than the one before
Their terror grows
"What if I die before
I fulfill my genetic
Destiny?" They ask. "How
Can I face the coming
Winter and Death with the
Knowledge I have failed?" So they rattle
"I know you're out there somewhere, on another branch,
Please Beeeeee Mine!"

Sunday, September 23, 2018

Postcard 16

Every molecule in our bodies is
Older, by many orders of magnitude,
Than the numbers represented by
The candles on our cakes
The distances they've travelled
Exceed those of even our most
Stalwart of Voyagers and
Intrepid of Pioneers. As they
Journeyed from the center of
Stars from a long time ago and galaxies
Far, far away, what did our
Building blocks lean about
The capricious nature of
Time and Space? What
Could we learn from just
The water which we borrow?
If only we could speak the
Language of electrons

Postcard 15

Is there a name for hallucinating
Music in the night? I hear it
Softly, like an echo of all that
Has been absorbed throughout the
Day. Sometimes it sounds like
TV jingles, other times it's
Rock and Roll (maybe it's not music but the buzzing from my soul) It's
Quiet, I often doubt myself. It's just my imagination (once again)
But then a chord breaks through
The fog of sound, the
Cacophony of white noise
We call silence. Perhaps
It's the neighbors, though
It only happens in the night
I never hear them through
Brick walls at other times
Or when other people in my house are
Awake. I probably should not never have
Mentioned it. It's nothing. Except
It makes it hard to fall asleep

Postcard 14

I would gain two years of
Extra life if I moved to
California. Though I am sure the
Added stress of living on a
Fault line, always waiting for the
Big One might subtract away my health.
Two years, though, that's a
Lifetime. So much can change
So quickly as events multiply. We wonder
Who even has time to evolve?
Earthquakes can happen
Anywhere, Sometimes it takes
Catastrophe to see the divide.
We got two years of living now
To watch what happened
After, two years to do the
Math, two years of reckoning
So much more time unfolds ahead
We hope, but...looking back on these two years
Were they worth it?
Should we move?

Saturday, September 22, 2018

August 13

In our defense, we thought
It would last forever
If you had been there you would too
Imagine the sky dark for ours
    as they flew past and seas
Inhabited by so many they
    could be plucked out with your bare hands
Intelligence, maybe, should have
    guided our actions, but our
Instinct was to gorge,
    to feast beyond our capacity
    to burst at our own seams
Impossible was it to
Impress on ourselves
    tomorrow would someday be
Impatience, that is our
    greatest virtue and our fatal
    flaw. We now face death because
    we are so skilled at
Ignoring the lessons of those who came before

August 12

It's in these silent moments
One can begin to see
Feel the subtle drumbeat against the ribs
Or at least imagine it is there
Tell the universe that all is well
One cannot know what one doesn't know
If we don't see it, hear its cries
We will not take it inside
This cocoon of quiet will
Act as shield, but also serve as
Prison. Protecting and Preventing
One from feeling all the pain
So even though it's cozy and
Offers an opportunity for
Reflection and discovery
One must return to the chatter
To the constant flow of noise
To take in the information, let it burn us to the bones
Then join our voices to the cacophony
In the opes we'll make a song

Postcard 11

The loneliness of our present age
Thrums continuously in us all
Like a heartbeat, bum pum bum pum
We only notice it during times of stress
When the pressure gets turned up to eleven
We know it's there, though, all the time
We would miss it if it suddenly
Went away, went silent, stopped
We'd feel for it in our sleep and
Notice and unnameable absence
In our waking hours
Perhaps our dreams would be
Happy, the pastiche world of
Candyland Lisa Frank Glitter
Explosion Kitten Fiestaville, Yeah!
We'd all giggle as we said to
One another, "I had the
Weirdest Dr-" and we wouldn't
Even have to finish the sentence
We'd smile knowingly over tea
Or coffee, if you prefer
We'd grow bored, eventually, but
We wouldn't be alone

Postcard 10

Some days are easy, effortless
The words just pour out
Overflow faster than I can write, but ten
There comes the
Sometimes I'm plagued by
Big Ideas
Other days, it's rhyme
I lack the discipline and
Consistency and have no
Sense of Time
The judgy internal monologue
Makes me throw so much away
It is surprising, really, that
I make it through each day
To fill each white space feels like
A battle which I wage
So it is a huge accomplishment
To make it to the end of a page
Yet here we are, right here, right now
It's over, is it not?
At some point, we all just accept
We get what we got

Full disclosure: I wrote an entirely different poem and then decided it was crap and trashed it. Then I regretted not even writing it down because maybe it didn't suck? Who knows now? Sometimes writer's block isn't about the act of producing, it's about not listening to your worst critic, or at least, making a copy.

Saturday, September 15, 2018

Postcard 9

"I'm not falling for your bullshit,"
I tell the cats, but this has no
Effect on the frequency or
Volume of their meows
They tell me their food bowls are
Empty, that they have always been
Empty, that this whole system of
Kibble delivery has never worked and
Furthermore is a violation of their
Dignity. Who am I to impose this
Regime upon them and why should
Our circumstances not be reversed?
(It's perverse)
Opposable thumbs are just an
Excuse, an absurdity, just like
Going to work or staying awake
Time, they tell me, has no
Meaning. They live in the now.
Now the bowl is empty and
Ten minutes ago never existed.
Why do I persist in consulting a clock?
It's cuckoo, they say.
"Be that as it may
I'm not falling for your bullshit."

Postcard 8

My head is stuffed, it's all
Filled up, packed with thoughts
That feel like worms
They move through my
Cerebral folds, they wriggle and
They squirm
Like parasites, they grow fat
They feed on what I learn
Then slide against themselves,
Exchanging DNA,
Creating new life that in turn
Takes up more space that isn't
There, so some thoughts do
Escape, burst out,
Spew forth, though there are not many
Exits (from my head) besides my mouth.
Some move slower and would prefer
To be in there forever, so I have to
Lure them out, pull gently lest
They break and others
Will never leave, they are mine
Until the end, though I wouldn't
Go so far as calling any of them friend

Postcard 7

It's hard to believe
With clouds like they are now
That there is infinite sky beyond
That it isn't layer after layer of
Sodden water vapor cotton blanket
Weighing down the atmosphere
Extending out to the quasars
On days such as this its
Hard to catch one's breath
To pull these molecules
Into one's airways and lungs
To expand the ribs against
The heavy gas that pushes back
It isn't comforting, though
The soporific nature of it
Masquerades as such. If only
One could go with it. Lie down. Let it take you.
But we must pretend, we must
Ignore that which looms above and
Have faith the sun will return
That it still shines, it still remembers us.

Postcard 6

None of us were as fabulous
As the people who viewed us
Through the prism of their own
Insecurities thought we were
None of us were as awful
As the people we beheld
When we looked in the mirror
Through imperfect filters of our own
But we were all cruel
Inadvertently and on purpose
Ignoring the wounds we opened
Unaware of the pain that belonged
To people who were not ourselves
But we also were something else
Creating islands of safety in the
Midst of all that angst
Oases of solace that we didn't
Recognize at the time
We thought we were so
Fragile and so strong
We were wrong. But
Here we are now.
                                Here we are now.

Postcard 5

No one asked the paper
If it wanted to be a crane
Every bend and fold
Done without its permission
It's relationship with the space
Changed without its consent
But then
The tree was never consulted
When it was changed into
Wood chips then pulp then
A dried layer of colored tissue
Nor was carbon when
Sunlight and chloropyll
Robbed it of its freedom and
Forced out of the air and into a cell
Hydrogen never chose to fuse
In the heart of a star, to be
Transformed then exiled by supernova.
The origami bird has flown far
To get to this place on the table

Postcard 4

Ink stains the cellulose
Bleeds into the cell walls
Reforming and remaking that which
Has already been manipulated
By stars and air and sunshine
Also humans and machines
Nothing started here at this point
Except this, this moment, right now
The molecules have been recycled
To get to this place of rest
Relatively speaking
The electrons still buzz, of course,
The protons still whir (or whatever they do) and
Who really knows what goes on in
Quantum states? It only
Appears to be a pause because
We don't have eyes to see
All of this will be remade
Refolded and reconnected
Once again, and again, and once more
This is just a blip, an oasis
It as changed already, transformed
Flowed forward into what it always
Meant to become even as it metamorphs into its next phase

Postcard 3

"We are all gods," it whispered
Right before it disappeared
Dissolving into the ether
Leaving us alone in the void
We huddled together at first, but soon
Went on our own journeys and
Followed different moons
Forgetting all the wisdom
We divided and we turned
Against one another and we burned
Down the bridges between our hearts which
Spanned the darkness, we came apart
But it was smart
It left a spark
A connection to the infinity
Simplified to our small words we called it divinity
It welcomed us back into the continuum
Gravity pulled on us until we became one

Postcard 2

It is no coincidence
That thoughts of the past
Conjure up
A real life ghost from long ago
Not from the history that one
Studies ad nauseum
But a moment just the same
Unlike those parts one
(and by "one I mean me, though maybe you, too)
This stretch of time gets
Eyes have been averted from
For such a long time, but now
There isn't even a scar to
Show it ever happened
Sometimes exorcisms
Are quicker thank a blink
Sometimes they
Go on forever

Postcard 1

I see you there in my old
world, walking down the
streets I once called mine,
stomping the grounds which
were old when I got there,
which I never felt
belonged to me, and even
though I know you are a
stranger, I am convinced
we have already met, that
we are connected by
place though separated
by time, the ghost I left
behind haunts you when
you pass her by, whispering
secrets of who I might
have become had I
stayed in that place
where you are now. Go
to all the special spaces
and kiss them for me.

Wednesday, September 12, 2018

It's Been Awhile, Hasn't It?

Two years, in fact.

I haven't touched this blog since the last time I did the August Postcard Poetry Festival.

So, what's been going on with you?

Since we were last here, a lot of stuff as happened.

(Awkward pause as we all think about what an understatement that is. Yeah, stuff has definitely happened since September 2016, hasn't it?)

There have been many moments since 2016 where I have wondered if there was a point to any of this, if my work had any value whatsoever, if I was just wasting energy that should be spent fighting?But then, there have been many moments where I run across something brilliant (like REVENGE by Elisa Chavez) and I am reminded that YES, there absolutely is a point to this, that art is also a medium for protest, a medium for inspiration, a medium for hope. Art can change the world.

So I persist. I write. I glue pieces of paper to other pieces of paper. I stopped my Allure subscription and started getting Vogue because I thought the pictures might inspire me more (I am still undecided as to whether that has been the case). I am not sure that anything I make has value*, but it isn't up to me to decide. I just need to keep doing it and putting it out there.

I also need external motivation because, left to my own devices, I am not going to create as much as I should and I definitely will not submit as much as I should.

Which brings me to the August Postcard Poetry Festival. I really enjoy the challenge of creating postcards, writing a poem, and then mailing it off to a stranger. Every day. I didn't do the festival in 2017 because last August, we went camping in Eastern Oregon to see the eclipse. This year, though, I found my calendar completely empty in August and there was no excuse not to try this again.

So here we are.

Please feel free to give me feedback.

* For example-One of my collages from the August, 2016 festival was accepted for the anthology 56 Days of August. Instead of being happy, I was salty because they did not also accept one of the poems I submitted. The glass is always half empty for me.

Sunday, October 02, 2016

Postcard 32

"Lit up in a blaze of glory as if
Suddenly slapped by an angry angel."
My rage was incandescent
Burning through my cells and
Radiating from tip of each hair
Standing out at attention
It came on fast and shot through me
Dragged me while I hung on
Enjoying the ride though the
Destination was a mystery
Until we reached it and I was
Doused, smothered, stopped
Put out, shut down, ended
Empty where the fire
Flamed, barren and bereft
Until the pain moved in
Announcing that what had come was merely
Prodromal preview for what comes next

Saturday, October 01, 2016

Postcard 31

Stretch new skin across your face
Draw on some eyes and paint pink lips
Disguise and dissemble and distract
You'd be surprised how much you can
Get away with when everyone is looking
In the right direction, but still they cannot see
The oppressors give you the
Tools to beat them at their
Own game. Yes it takes
Work and time and effort
There will be days when
You wonder if it's worth it
That's just the system
Beating you down
Trying to get you to reveal.
Keep your true self
Hidden behind the fake one they taught you to
Create. Your reality is yours and yours alone
They never need to know what is underneath

Friday, September 30, 2016

Postcard 30

Gold and Titanium
Clicks and Chirps
Messages in a bottle
Traveling through waves of radiation
Buffeted by solar winds
Tossed out with only hope
This sea is so vast, infinitely so
Our act of faith gets lost
Or maybe just adds to
Noise we cannot hear
This lifetime is too short
We will never learn
Another language, we don't
Even know all our own, but
We believe we will be understood
Such confidence. Such hubris. Such despair.
Still children we are, afraid we may be
All alone in the dark

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Postcard 29

Cut me a slice of chaos pie and
Box it up for me with all the world's ills
Tell me again how we invented the
Gods to serve as mirrors of ourselves (and
Tell me again why women are always the
Conduit for all the bad things the
Gods pretend they did not create). Yet
Still we are surprised, aghast, when they seem
Small despite the power we have gifted to them.
The ability to shape shift which Zeus uses to
Rape a girl after appearing to her as
Golden rain (perhaps he was just really kinky?)
Lord of Destruction and rebirth, but
Shiva lacks the impulse control to deal with a
Child saying, "Let my mom have five minutes
Alone in her bath," and then after his tantrum
He can't even find the kid's head,
So here is an elephant's,
Ganesh won't mind, right? All of them so insecure they
Constantly create tests and
Blame us when we inevitably fail.
The snake knew the score all along, he knew
It was rigged from the start. Like the movie said,
"Strange game, the only way to win is not to play."

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Postcard 28

Last night, Aphrodite and Zeus came so
Close to one another, some would say
They kissed while all the stars were watching.
Just a trick of the distance, they were
As far from one another as ever, it was an
Optical illusion and our own desire to
Find connections where none
Exist, pattern seekers that we are
We draw pictures in the
Sky. Connect the dots
Tell ourselves those
Disconnected points of light can
Predict our futures and
Explain our pasts. Help us
Find love and understanding in an
Otherwise ambivalent universe which would
Freeze us dead if we ventured out without
Protection. We pretend it cares by
Calling all those spots the names we gave to gods

Postcard 27

Among a certain group of friends I am
Known for being glamorous. Which is
Really just another way of saying
I am invisible. They cannot see me
So they slap a label on me and then
They no longer have to try, the word is there and
Serves to cover me like a shroud, except
I don't even leave a ghostly image of
Who I might really be
What I might really look like
Where I might keep my soul.
Hidden underneath the layers I
Gave up even trying to
Reveal myself long ago
I play along and pretend this is real and
Suspect this is what we all are doing. Playacting
A role for others until we tell ourselves we aren't
Until the fake becomes so second
Nature and we no longer question
We no longer doubt

Postcard 26

I wrote of false prophets and the
Rainbows of disorders pretending to be
Holy Men (and yes, it is always men, the
Women who are hucksters aim small, they only promise
They can tell your fortunes or read the stars) then
You talk to me of apparating shaman, glowing
Citrusy shades of halo corona and the look of
One who as seen the Truth, or at least truth. Do
You believe or are you just
Playing along, hooking up with
This god until something
Better comes along? Careful
Who you give your faith to as
Deities have a way of taking
Advantage even when they
Believe their tales and truly think
They show the light. Something about worship makes
An entity insinuate itself into dark corners of
Addiction and demand more from those who follow. So
Beware and be aware and be wear

Postcard 25

We blamed Bukowski, Miller, Nin when we
Try to find reasons for the way we
Tolerated the hard drinking, street fighting
Chaos of our youth (which I am tempted to
Mispronounce as that makes it sound almost
Pastoral-a childhood filled with ill-tempered
Friesans, bad ass Holsteins, and punk rock Jerseys)
The writer who has gotten off scot free in all this
Is the one hiding behind his hermit-like denial of
Fame, Power, Wealth, Celebrity, Attention, Love
We thought he was so noble
And we drank his koolaid down
Grew drunker on it than any
Concoction of liquor and codeine cough syrup
Didn't once question the way
He presented mental illness and
Spectrum disorders as the
Signal of divinity, Suicide as the
Act of a bodhisattva, a
Nervous breakdown as pregnant with meaning. But
Now we are older and we See More Glass

Postcard 24

Paint my tale in shades of dark
In midnight licorice charcoal jet
So only the most discerning of viewers
Will distinguish the shades and details
Paint my story in shades of glamour
As camouflaged charmed chameleon chimera
So what their eyes say confound
What the brain believes to be true
Paint my name in shades of invisible
With veiled transparent inconspicuous clarity
So I may hide in plain sight
Waiting, watching, wondering
Paint my life in shades of mystery
A puzzling enigmatic obscured secret
Let me be the question left unanswered
But I will know why they asked

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Postcard 23

The crystal desert air is telescopic
Brings the stars so close they cast
Shadows of their own. The cactus
Keep silent watch, bear witness to
All that unfolds both above and below
There is no horizon and the sky goes on
Forever. You could get lost up there
Drown in the Milky Way haze cracking the shell
Down the middle, then
Get scooped out when
Snagged on Mali's Hook
(Which reminds you there
Are scorpions in the underbrush
So keep your wits about you)
The distance is at once
Obvious and ridiculous, those
Pinprick twinkles are too
Glittery to be so complicated. You memorize their
Patterns and wish they knew your name

Postcard 22

The low hanging fruit isn't ripe yet
Hard, green, not rewarding even
For minimal effort. Climb to the top
Grasp the soft, sweet, red flesh between
Teeth and suck down the juice, then
Hop back down to earth. Remember you will
Burn if you stay up there too long
The sight you see takes your breath away and you can
Grow drunk on the sugar, along with
Your giddy glee at your good fortune
Bask in the knowledge
You won't have to work as
Hard tomorrow, for the
Sunshine will trickle down
Slowly burnishing rewards
Closer to earth until the
Moment you just raise
A hand to the heavens
You won't miss the thorns
But you will miss the view

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Postcard 21

Metal armored war dragons screech
Overhead, ripping the sky to sonic shreds
They're just practicing now. Playing.
Showing off for us and preening as they
Loop and dive, separate and in formation.
They aren't going to rain fire on our heads,
Not today or tomorrow or, we're told, forever.
They are our protectors. They are on our side,
These speeding, airborne creatures of death.
What choice do we have? We
Must believe, for they are
Our children, our creations.
The DNA of our ancestors
Lives inside their skins. We
Can't conceive they could be
Used against us. So we
Ignore the booms we hear from
Far off lands and pretend our
Peace will extend into infinity

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Postcard 20

There is no line from then to now and no way to
Measure how long it takes.
Straight is a fiction, a collection of
Disorganized points we choose to see as
Ordered by ignoring information we find
Inconvenient and by stepping away to a
Distance which renders any detail or dissent
Invisible. Meter is inconsistent, blurry and
Indistinct, just add more heartbeats until it all
Becomes one drum. Not to mention, we allow ourselves
Amnesia, we defense mechanism away
Uncomfortable truths which impede our ability to
Pretend events unfold
According to existing narratives
Lies we tell ourselves like
Time is linear, forget the
Twists and turns and spirals it
Takes as it careens us to
Dangerous places, or that
Minutes pass in a consistent
Fashion, deny that some years are
Mere seconds while some decades, like
The 50s and the 80s seem to last
Over a thousand years, for some periods are sticky and we
May never leave them behind completely

Monday, September 19, 2016

Postcard 19

Otherworldly strangeness of insecta
Well, not so much not of this earth so much as
Utterly foreign to us in every way
Too many legs and inside out bodies
See-through wings and copper green blood
Aliens which dwell among us, outnumber us
Consider Hymenoptera (or don't if you want your dreams
Nightmare free) where each individual is more
Cell than separate entity. One death, one thousand
Is unnoticed by the whole, the loss is not a factor
In the collective's unrelenting quest, no point wasting
Time mourning the loss, they
Don't even slow down.
Consider the larvae
Moist and gelatinous
Impossible to love and
Then they are pupae
Asleep and changing
But always in contact with the mothership

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Postcard 18

The ostrich does not strike me as bitter
So much as generally bad-tempered
Like camels, but with less spitting
And, let's level with one another,
Wouldn't you be too? How would you feel?
You have such a round befeathered orb atop
Two spindly tall legs and you must run
For there you are
Smack dab in the middle of
Serengeti Plain surrounded
By predators, of both the
Toothed animal and
Camerad tourist variety
Can you blame a bird for having a bad atitude?
We should be congratulating it,
But it a drink, tell it it's our favorite, and,
Above all, never suggest it should fly

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Postcard 17

On a cosmic scale, size defines a body
What species of object you are is
Determined by the amount of
Mass you have managed to accrete
Is there enough there to make you round?
Are you small and rocky or large and gassy?
Have you passed the threshold of thermonuclear fusion?
Can we call you a Giant or are you a Dwarf?
But none of this matters from
Our vantage point, here
We are so far away that
Everything else is a tiny
Pinprick twinkle twinkle overhead
The rules are rendered irrelevent
When we look with our naked
Eyes and open our hearts
To the sky. All of it fills us
With awe. Every object, small or large,
Informs our understanding of infinity
We see its perfection and forget
The definitions and limitations

Friday, September 16, 2016

Postcard 16

Who would have guessed that a near quarter century later
All I would remember of that beautiful film
Was the excavation of dreams?
I'm afraid to watch it now
It feels like going backwards and, besides,
Who has the time?
I suspect it would feel dated,
Embarrassingly so, as it tried so hard
To be about the future. Instead,
It was filled with fin-de-siecle angst and
Mirrored that brief period of flux
When we all thought the world
Could change into something greater,
Something more. It was the beginning
We could see the energy fields and
Networks that would link us all
But it was still an infant then
Jelly soft and wet from birth
The isms hadn't yet dried it to a hard
Shell of cynical sameness. We still imagined, or maybe we just hoped,
Our dreams might hold all the answers.

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Postcard 15

As beautiful as that pile
Of splintered, shattered sparkle
May be, it is also unlucky
It lures you in with its twinkle
And shines the world back at you
In ways you never saw
You go closer, wanting more
But beware, do not touch
Do not dive down into
Its depths. You lack the
Exoskeleton necessary
To navigate its edges
It will tear you up,
Bleed you dry and
All you will have in your ands to show for
Your sacrifices is some silver foil and clear glass

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Postcard 14

Thirteen is my favorite number
I like the way it feels as it rolls
Past my tongue and around my teeth
And dares the speaker to smile at the end
Those double eeeeees play tricks
Never letting on that the coupling
Of two primes will create a third
Pretending to be unlucky
Only revealing its secrets
To those willing to look
Like black cats and broken mirrors
The superstitious will remain
In the dark. Afraid.
Never knowing the beauty
Hiding in plain sight
Right there between
All we have learned and that which we dream

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Postcard 13

I've spotted you twenty-two times
Out of sync and moving in the wrong direction
You rebel you
A puzzle I can't figure out
Problematic, because you reveal
How little I understand the universe
Like the pea buried beneath
A thousand mattresses
You irritate my need for order
Though I can't say I am not intrigued
The word why, after all
Is the best way to begin any conversation
Ask any two year old
So my curiosity is piqued
Please tell me all your secrets

Monday, September 12, 2016

Postcard 12

Raspy Scream Cicada Song
Rippling overhead
A disturbance through the canopy
Look up and expect to see
The leaves shuddering
Shaking to the rattle
Shimmying as the sound
Yet all is still
No movement of branches
No rustle of limbs
Those waves that crash
Build, recede, from tree
To tree to tree to tree,
Is not solid. It has no weight
Its thingness is ephemeral
Its existence cannot be touched
Fades with the wind

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Postcard 11

"Importance always meant
one thing in relation to another"
It is just another
Taller, Smaller, Bigger, Faster,
Lesser, Larger, Slower, Lighter
A means of comparison, a way to describe
Relationship. A system of order and organization
The judgment of importance
Of value, is in the eye of the beholder
There is no objective standard in the individual
One is not lonely though it is only
One is like a cat in a box
One is all things
Tall, Small, Big, Fast,
Less, Large, Slow, Light
Until another crawls in
And observes.

Saturday, September 10, 2016

Postcard 10

I am reaching for the threads of a plot
Or a through line, some sort of story,
An explanation for how I got from
There to there to there to there to there.
Instead, I only have snippets, collages,
Tableaus of experience and high emotion.
Water stairs to deep libraries
Trains which begin
   under cities and
   disappear in the dark
Boxes of socks, the
   unmatched and unloved
   finding new uses
                          I perceive I did not
achieve              anxiety                  I risk
resentment                        fate

Friday, September 09, 2016

Postcard 9

Navigating the transition
From images to words
Is easier on some days
The switch occurs so quickly
   one moment the eyes are closed
   an eyeblink later, they open
   and words begin to collect
   grains of sand filling the hourglass
But other times
The crossing of the frontier
Is longer and harder
Each step forward seems
To make no progress
Leftover tableaus snag
Against my face, but
Melt as I try to grab them
I am left with a sense of unease and
A fear I have lost something important

Thursday, September 08, 2016

Postcard 8

I dreamt we were watching
The next Star Wars film on VHS tape
No, not the one that is coming out
This year, the one after that, VIII
Though the medium of recording device
and the hairstyles would suggest
It was one years ago, a lost scene
From my childhood and not a
Vision of the future.
But I was grown up and
So were you, adult and
Filled with knowledge of
What might come next
Foreboding, Premonition
The tension was too great
So I pulled the crocheted Afghan
Over my head, to hide from what I knew
Could happen, and to find
Safety under blankets from my past

Wednesday, September 07, 2016

Postcard 7

The terror of silence
Of negative space
The panic that bubbles
Out from the lizard brain
At the base of the skull
When confronted with
The vast expanse of
Nothing and the knowledge
It cannot be filled
No amount of configuration
Of atomic particles
Can ever fill that void
At the moment when
One thinks one has, the
Scale shifts and the
Distances stretch out
Beyond one's comprehension
But still we try for nature abhors a vacuum

Tuesday, September 06, 2016

Postcard 6

The atmosphere just collapsed
As it does every afternoon
Darkness falls and then a
Phase shift from vapor to crystal
Drags down the air to earth
We are blanketed by frost
Until the sun returns
At which point it all reverses
Goes back to gas
Sublimation of solid
Floating out to the
Edges of the envelope
Until tomorrow

Monday, September 05, 2016

Postcard 5

The first rule of orbits is
Never question the center
Do not doubt the validity
Of that around which you spin
Have faith that your planet
Has mass and will continue to
Exert a gravitational pull
You must not stop believing
There is a there there
For it is that which keeps
You moving through space
What you hold in your head
Will guide you even if the
Laws of physics and
Time-Space Continuum
Let you down

Sunday, September 04, 2016

Postcard 4

Invent a secret language
   just for us
Whisper it to me in conspiratorial tones
Let the sound barely touch your tongue
As it dances past your teeth
I will have to listen closely
So I do not miss a single word
For every last syllable
Must be recognized
Else the meaning is lost
To the wind that blows
Between the space that
The border of me from
The border of you

Saturday, September 03, 2016

Postcard 3

There used to be more fireflies and stars out in the night
More points of light to wink at
Glittering spots of distraction
To make us spin in circles
Go down foxholes and alleys
Or sometimes just stand still staring up
We once had dark to comfort us
Before, in childhood, long ago
Before the concrete and sodium glow
Blanketed us in false security
Made promises of solace, but instead
Shines so bright it hurts the eyes
Sometimes turning our tears into twinkles

Friday, September 02, 2016

Postcard 2

There is always the moment before
When I know, or at least, I believe
                                         I could just walk away
                                         I could not take that sip
           The wine would remain in the glass
           My heart would remain in the body
But then I always say yes
Plunge head first into the action
Consequences set aside, for now
I swim through the liquid and let it permeate every last pore
Drink down the kisses and bloom with the
Rain like a flower on an arid plain
(Though that suggests drought which has not been the case)
Tomorrow never considered in the moment of today, it is always the
Unexpected yet predictable day of reckoning hanging over my head,
But too far away for now

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Postcard 1

Distance Softens
       all one's imperfections
The span of many miles
                or many years
Renders our Everests flat
Fills in our trenches
Allows the myth of attraction
             the law of gravity
      and the forces of atomic nucleii
             to take hold
So then all we see is
             a beautiful planet
                           of blue and clouds 
             a smiling girl, carefree and

Read this if are wondering what is going on.