I am reaching for the threads of a plot
Or a through line, some sort of story,
An explanation for how I got from
There to there to there to there to there.
Instead, I only have snippets, collages,
Tableaus of experience and high emotion.
Water stairs to deep libraries
Trains which begin
under cities and
disappear in the dark
Boxes of socks, the
unmatched and unloved
finding new uses
I perceive I did not
achieve anxiety I risk