I have avoided creating a blog for some time now. My fear was that I would become attached to this, that I would write here and then would avoid writing in the real world, that this opportunity for naval gazing and exposure would serve as yet another internet procrastination tool (cheaper than ebay, more self-involved than message boards.) But the truth is that I haven't been doing much writing in the real world. All my projects are gathering dust. I underestimated the amount of mental energy I needed and foolishly thought that I could somehow succesfully juggle motherhood with my desire for artistic brilliance. I need an outlet and I need something external to motivate me. So here I am using Julian's naptime to create a blog. Perhaps it will prove to have been a wise decision, I may create more than I ever planned. Perhaps I will grow bored with this medium and will cease to post. Who can say?